I had grown weary of witnessing many believers acting in a manner that mirrored their old nature, not the new nature Christ promises is ours if we believe His promise. Sooner or latter this sort of thing happens to everyone, myself included. The previous weeks had been challenging for me and I slowly began to unearth that buried old man. Up until last Sunday I had never completely thrown out a prepared sermon and spoken without notes. Thankfully I am supported by an awesome Tech Team on Sunday mornings who can "go with the flow".
I needed to remind myself that I am a new creation in Christ. My position in the world had changed. I was no longer an enemy of God but was given a place in the Kingdom of God by Christ himself. Those old things had passed away and it was the father of all lies that kept whispering to me "you don't need Jesus, you are more than able to be a church leader, pastor, teacher, administrator, writer, father, grandfather and husband without Him". While those words were not my exact thoughts, my actions mirrored those words. Truth is truth, no matter whether I or anyone else believes that truth. Our belief or disbelief doesn't change the truth. 2 plus 2 will always equal 4 no matter how much I want to believe the total is 5.
We are new creatures set free from our past actions and thought patterns, PERIOD! Settle that fact and those new things come to us by living and thinking His way, not ours.